- yan -

2010-07-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

i'm damn scared... how to last when i can't even ask you a single question now without feeling scared that you'll scold me....
you don't ask me questions cos you know i will definitely tell you, even the slightest details.
if i don't ask you, you'll be gone from my life completely. you will never tell me at all de.
i really can't believe we got into a quarrel cos of this.
my vision's blurring...i never could understand why i would have liked my ex...and now you.
give me some reasons to like you, i beg you.
now i really really don't even understand you already... so please stop using "i thought you know i would do this and that..." or "huh? you dunno MEH?"

it just pains me to hear that from you, at the moment.

2010-06-22T22:50:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry..
i really really don't know how to treat you nice anymore.
i don't know why i just keep on scolding you everytime you don't do according to my wishes, i know i am too much, but i just can't change.
i really need time.
i guess i became like you, too lazy to really think.
if it was the old me, i'd have cried like mad when i said the things i said on friday, but i didn't.
i did not even shed a tear.
sigh.
i really don't know what the future holds for me, but now that i've made my decision..
i guess i ought to do the best that i chose to do bah.
but first i need you to show me that you're the one that truly understands me, the one that compels me to work hard for you.
the one that is worth me to give you a second chance..

all i need is time, and that's all i lack

2010-06-19T21:00:00.002+08:00

hey junhao.
i know it's a long time since i posted anything on my blog for you..when im supposed to,
so here it goes!

idk why things have turned this way, i wanna know whyy tooooo D:
i really really gave you alot of chances, i never hinted anymore, i obviously told you, but now, i still dont get what i want even though i TOLD you i wanted it.
i really wanna believe that you still like me alot, but i can't.
you don't show it.
you're lazy to even do the simplest thing for me..
idk what has gotten into you since hockey trainings began, you're like a totally different person.
you never wanted to do anything much for me, you really really became like a girl, complain and rant and never stops , grudgingly doing the things only after that.
you never gave me my card on time. it's only one year that you cared to do so, but even so, you did it last minute just for the sake of giving it to me so i wouldn't be angry.
every time for a few months you never done any cards on time can!
and you even felt sad when i said i didn't want to make you a card for one year, so how many months have you made me sad!

you always say i spoil the mood when you're sending me home,
but have you wondered how many times your pouts like a girl could spoil mine too?
you only care to think about yourself, but you never sat down to think about what if you're in my position :(

and all the time you've been lazy,
not wanting to do ANY reflection, and keep pushing the blame on me.
you're just so slack, so lackadaisical.
on the day of my briefing, you were the one who said you wanted to fetch me!
i told you i didnt even know how to get there, but you just refused to even check it out for me or bring me there.
well, alot of people expected you to bring me there, i told them it won't happen.
i was right.
even my ex could check it out for me, when he wasn't even the first person to know i need to go there. it was you!
urgh.
it's not the end, i told you to make a decision to whether to fetch me or not, you told me you were going to either send me there or send me back.
that's saddening enough, but nvm, i take it that world cup happens only once in 4 years, so i let it go. i made you decide cos i wanted to know what you would do when i dont tell you to. i want you to be decisive. i want to know how much you care and love me.
i guess it proves everything.
you didn't come.
you freakin don't care!!
you KNOW how long a briefing can be, you could at least made your way down, instead of staying at the same spot idk doing what! but i don't really care.
it's enough to prove le.

best still, there's more!
you couldn't even wake up to text me before my camp started!
all in the name of soccer!-.-
omg i hate world cup so much now.
your fb status, me: world cup = 1:10
cool.
suckfest.
i feel like swearing.
you freakin failed your test, needless to say:(
and on the day of my break camp, i ALREADY told you that you can come and fetch me, you promised me you will, and i was rather happy waiting for that.
but obviously, everything with you wouldn't happen.
idk what the FUCK happened to you and you told me you don't have the mood.
you dont even bother to come to tuition to fetch me.
you slacked outside instead.
cooooool D:
i hate you man.

thanks for always NOT being there for me. THANKS.
idk what i can expect from you anymore.
you're totally not the guy i used to like.
really hope time can work back like the sands of time in prince of persia..
back to the sweet and awesomely lovely days(:
i pray, i wish, i hope too.

Happy 247 Days!!!

2010-02-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

You're gone for the first day of hockey camp and i miss you like crazy already. I guess i only bothered to ask you to write posts for me, yet i did not write a single nice one for you. Sorry dear! Haha, nevermind, here it goes~!

Hey-yo dear! Happy 8 MONTHS and 1 DAY!:)
My life really changed alot after being with you! Today you were singing the song "I knew i love you before i met you" to me at the void deck! For that moment my heart really M-E-L-T!! Like totally! OMG. Sorry for always looking at my vector notes arh! It's not that they are more important or appealing than my dearest, but i really dunno how to react! I could have hugged you if not we're in school! HAHAHA. So pardon me for sometimes laughing to myself suddenly, it's always the case that i'm thinking of doing something sweet for you, or i thought of something that you did for me(: *crossing fingers cos maybe i have thought of something to scam you LOL*

I really can't THANK YOU enough for ALLLLLLLL the AWESOME, BEST-EST, CUTE, DARING, TERRIFIC, AND WONDERFUL THINGS YOU'VE DONE FOR ME! I may not have shown you my acknowledgement, a smile or a friendly squeeze or hug, but that doesn't mean i don't know, and don't care about you.

I love you for being there for me everytime, even when you don't, i know you still wish you were with me.

I love you for always shielding me from the 17ºC classroom by bringing your jacket! And even on the most tiring (or shag!) hockey training days, you never fail to put it on your arm, and carry my file despite the weight.

Right from the start, you have always take a look at the aircons of the bus, and made sure it's not blowing directly at me at the start of every ride.

I love you for always putting me at first place. Sometimes after i complain, it means nothing to me anymore, but you still made a point to change, and keep me company more in class, that i have no choice but to stay dependent on you, to an extent that without you i feel that my life is so d.e.a.d.

I love the way you touch my head sometimes, it makes me feel so loved and have the hey-girl-you're-mine kinda feeling!

I love the way you brag to Sandra and QQ about us! HAHA, random holding hands in class and squeezing to make sure we are okay.

I love you for being sensitive too! Not that i don't like it, it's more likely i'm not used to it yet. I like the way you stop whatever you're doing just to check out if i'm alright. I waste your time (but you'll say i'm always worth your time, and my time will always be waiting for you. Not emo wor, cos time and tide waits for no-one!xD )

I love the way you squirm away when i tickle you, the way you look when you believe my scam (aha!), the way you reject my coleslaw and baked beans and other saucy stuff when i didnt have intention to let you eat. You look really unique and cute in every action you do.

I love the way you don't get upset when i say some other guys are cute! You even say you're better, totally love your optimism and of course, its definitely NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT. No matter how often i say someone's cute, it can never be compared to you. They are only words that come out from my mouth, but the person that stays in my heart is the one i truly know is the cutest and charming guy i'd ever want to have.

I love the way you listen to me too! I am not mad at you for asking me to repeat a second time already, and getting your attention first before saying things slower doesn't mean i'm pissed too! I will repeat for you nicely now, cos i know YOU LOVE TO STONE, but caution: LEARN TO ROCK MORE OKAY!x) I may not repeat in a nice tone (sometimes) is because i've already gotten it after i asked, and scared of breaking my MRT of thoughts! But nevertheless, i never got pissed or angry as i complain about you, or talk to you. I can't hate you for failing to do something, when you have accomplished much more than i have ever wanted and needed.

I love you for sending me home too! Even when it's so inconvenient for you, even when it's so damn late that you may be boarding the last few trains, you still make a point to send me home, unless i asked you not to. The most touching thing is when you were still feeling ill and yet you wanted to send me home! Sometimes while walking home alone makes me think of you too! Think of the times i brought you around my neighbourhood, the things we said while walking at the exact place last time. Everything i see i really think of you, like how we hold hands walking home from different routes, to avoid crowd and to explore. You make me feel so loved.

I love you, for always treating me! I know you do not have enough cash, yet all you ever think of was me. I know very well you have dinner at home, yet you would never want me to eat alone. For as long as you can make it, you will eat with me and go home to eat again. This may sound to you like a repeat, but it simply means i appreciate it alot! You never cared for yourself more than you care for me.

I love you for not shirking the responsibility of a boyfriend. You are always there to rectify the problem and make changes so that we can last. You always make sure we talk things out so that things don't fall apart so easily. I know you're tired, yet you still do so much stuff for me, for us.

I love you, for always trying to make me happy. I am glad that you have put in sooooo soooooooo much effort to make things good for us, ps-ing your friends just to have a nice meal and chat with me. You buy random stuff to cheer me up too. You do retarded actions just to make the smile on my face. You sing high songs to influence me not to sing emo songs! You sacrifice for me ungrudgingly though you may be tired, though you may not like it. You hide your grudge from me so that i can be happy. I am more than happy to have this kind of guy with me!

AND I LOVE YOU FOR SNEAKILY TYPING A BLOG POST WITHOUT ME KNOWING! Checking if i ever go to your blog huh huh! Sneaky guy omg. Sorry that has been unvisited since the last time i asked you to blog, i will visit it more often i suppose hahaha!~ nevertheless i feel very touched and loved(: thanks dear, i love every post you written for me(:

I guess i can only describe you as my-kinda-guy, cos there's really no words that can ever describe how much you've done, and how much you mean to me! I'm quite glad that things turn out this way. Thrashing things out; stabilising; crying over and laughing over it; no relationship is perfect, ever. Some ways we have to bend, to compromise, to give up something in order to gain something greater. Our love for each other is bigger than these differences that we have. When you hurt each other but take each other back in a heartbeat…that’s love. I guess we have hurt each other in some ways or another, but have never totally gave up on each other.

I'm somehow glad that such differences surfaced now, than later, or never. At least i can tell others i know more about my guy now, i know what to do at certain times. I know things can never be smooth and perfect always, if it is so, i'd have never known how to cherish you by my side. The disorientation that has happened, though over a month long, but it made me cherish things when they go right for us.

I've always wanted to make alot alot of friends, or want to have superficial friends around me. But now i realise, it's not nicholas or anyone that have been with me for the longest, but it's who is always beside me, never leaving, never letting go. It's you, dear. Even if the whole world turns their back on me, i know you'll be there for me, and you'll know i'll always want to be there for you too.

The following quote really describes my feeling now as you're slogging real hard at hockey camp! Here it goes:
Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.

This is how i'm feeling now. I'm incomplete without you. I need your love to give me strength and determination in everything i do; i need your smile to brighten my life; i need your hands to bring me everywhere you go; i need your arms around me, to make me feel comfortable and safe; i need your protection and your care, to let me know that i'm not alone; i need your heart to let me know that i'm always the one making your heart beat for every millisecond that i'm loving you; i need your fingers to put on my left shoulder, protruding your index finger just to poke my cheek; i need your eyes, too always keep an eye on me, spy at me if i ever pick my face, and care for me from the look of your loving eyes.
Everything about you made me neer want to let you go ever again.. I really just want to stay wrapped in your arms forever, just like in tent date, where nothing else matters but you and me.

Hehe, you should know i'm not getting emo, i'm just writing out how i really do feel about my dear! I'm holding on to something dear, and no matter what happens to us again, darling, be sure that i will not leave you again. I am not so weak in my mind to give up on you so easily; i know my heart promise, and i'll keep by it in everyday that my heart is beating(: You've made me realise so much wonderful things in my life that i've always missed. You've taught me things i never knew, and never dared to ask anyone else but you. You are the one and only boyfriend i've been searching for all this while, and now that i have you, nothing can let me give up on you again.

You know you're with the right person when you kiss them... and your soul turns a brighter shade of red(: Junhao, my soul turned from maroon to crimson red after i met you!( differentiate the colours ah!) I've accepted you as who you are, have faith in me, like how i always will have faith in you.

Everything happens for a reason; that's why i love you.

2009-11-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

LOL.
to yy: i shouldn't make this my private blog lah, i still wanna talk crap here bout other stuff de mah. i wanna call you tonight HAHA.

anyway, i doubt anyone's reading haha.
just found out some things by myself hahaha.
maybe i should just stop asking;
i dont know.
i dont wanna know anything more.

sticking by my own rules; toodles.

2009-11-13T22:13:00.001+08:00

hey darling! this post is specially dedicated to YOU!

it's been our 163rd day together! like what you've said, it's really not too long, neither is it short, but its long enough to make me fall for you so deeply, loving you a whole lot too!

being with you always gives me a special feeling. it makes me feel loved, feel cared for, and feel safe and secure.
just like the time we were in the tent. i know i was freaking scared, frantically wanting the stupid cockroach to get out of the tent, but it just wouldn't budge. and though you simply murmured "don't worry, i'll protect you...", hugging me and falling back to sleep (like immediately), i knew at that instant i felt a whole lot calmer. i feel your warm breath on me, i felt your heartbeat pumping right beside mine, i feel blissful, and soon fell back to sleep.

and, the grasscutting incident. i never knew i was so afraid of grasscutting til now. the sound of the cutters, the flying of the grass (or perhaps any other things that got in the way of the cutters)...it simply freaked me out as the sound approached me. thanks dear, for letting me hide in your arms. thanks for reassuring me that everything was gonna be alright. i really, really felt safe.

this relationship has taught me alot alot too!
i will learn to say things without being threatened.
i learnt that even though things may not go the way it was planned, making the best situation out of it, still does make everything meaningful, or even more meaningful.
things don't go the way we planned it, and i (hope i ) learnt not to plan anything.
like what i used to say, go with the flow and see how it goes. i guess i have to do what i preach LOL.
when things are not planned, though irritance seem to show on my face, but its really not the case, dear. i enjoy the moment spent with you. the surprises you give me, the surprises we receive when our plan becomes unsuccessful. LOL.

i love the movie 2012!!! though there's some awkward moments with your sis, but with time im so gonna gang up with your sis and bully you man! :):P:D
on the way home i went to ponder, thinking about what would i do if world's gonna come to an end. the only thing i thought was to spend the remaining time with you. smiling at you...bickering with you...lying in your arms... i just wanna be around you, to know that i have had a meaningful and enriching life, a life story that has taught me many, many things. And of course, its only you that made me feel this way(:

dear.. though you may have heard of this soooo many times, but i really wanna express my thanks to you, for making these 5 months plus, such a magical part of my life. i can truly say that it's the best time of my life to be spending part of my sweet 16 and now 17th year with you. You never failed to care about me, to give me the love and concern that i need, the attention that i want, and the time that is ever so precious to you, yet you gave it all to me. Thanks for everything you've given me. I will never wanna make you sad with my actions or words anymore! You are the missing piece in my life. Thanks darling, for making it complete. Thanks darling, for being who you are. I love you, i always do..

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爱你的老婆！

2009-11-03T22:26:00.002+08:00

Time flies..
It has been 5 months with junhao already (:
Today was judgement day..
it can be a surprise, or a more expected outcome, that there are retainees in our class of 1SB6.
Though i may not be so close with them, or didn't have the chance to, but to see them not moving along as i am, i really feel the sadness.
hmm, and i feel kinda guilty sometimes, for neglecting my classmates and girl friends over and over again. Emo-ed cos i went broke today. I was like thinking how many groups of friends and how many outings i should have, but how little money i have.. hai.

It was a fun day today with junhao and the rest with the bingos. (:
then suddenly after calling junhao a retard jokingly, he simply used his right knuckles and drilled it into my head, with his left hand keeping firm of my neck that i had no chance to move. oh man, it was PAIN LIKE SHIT. First time crying out cos of pain. i guess he pressed on my old wound where i knocked hard cos of the brake in my grandpa's car. hai. EMONESS throughout.

sorry dear..
i got pissed for not being able to find you. sorry for not being there for you to rub my head for me. i didnt blame you, and i didn't want you to worry. im sorry...
though i promised you a blog post, i know it should turn out like this. dont be like me... dont feel guilty anymore okay?

i love you the way you are, and everything about you. really, i do. you also didn't want this to happen anyway, and u did not do it intentionally. im alright dear, smile always okay? i love you always...

2009-10-14T13:25:00.000+08:00

The Dark Knight

the moment, it is just yet-to-be

2009-08-13T17:50:00.000+08:00

hahas!
it's been a superrrrr long time since i last blogged.
haha.
i know you guys just miss me :p

hmm. short update for those who haven been seeing me for quite some time.
haha! i found that acjc life kinda suits the playful me.
there's room for me to be dreamy, to be serious, to fool around, to hang out, to be random, to be childish.
but it's time to be accountable for my own doings.
i have to work hard.
i can't slack.
to get good grades.
i reap what i sow.

hmm. the old kayyan has changed i guess. i am now more sensible.
i know how to think for myself. i grow to be more independent. i grow to learn the singapore roads so that i do not get lost.
i grew taller (possibly).
i grew to be more matured.
i grew not to be so fussy over small issues that doesn't kill or affect me much.

also.
i grew to talk alot.
i am more random than ever.
i like to talk about people, good or bad.
be it to praise someone, or to rant or vent my frustration.
i grew to use alot of slang, like 'damn', 'super', 'what the hell/shit'.
i grew to cherish friendship more.
i grew not to put so much importance to someone, and get battered and hurt at the end.
i grew not to let stuff affect my relationship, affect my mood so much.

but still, im still the randomly high kayyan. the girl with random lame thoughts. the girl that loves hanging out.
the girl that found her love!<3
totally love him!
i doubt any juniors or people will be so random to click on my blog to check this out lah, since timothy had long ago declared the blog funeral for this blog long long time ago.
its the 71th day we're together!, that's 10 weeks!!!!
happiness to the max!
had a whole lot of awesomeness and wonderful moments together, walking in the rain under one pathetically small umbrella, reaching school only to realised the rest of the class is totally dry.
and then got sick after that, only to realise how much he actually cares for me.
the times we laugh at each other's fats, though i have alot and all of his are all muscles, so i always ended up making a fool out of myself.
the times we shake each other's head like crazy in uniform at mrt stations without caring about how others think of us. his cuteness after he cuts his hair; the way he manage to sms me without his specs and while being wrapped in the big drapes and towels.
the way he waits for me every morning, and the times i can ever wait happily for someone. i swear, its the first time i ever waited for ANYONE for an hour yet not getting angry. i guess he's the only one that can ever make me feel like that(:
the way he apologises to me, the way he thinks he makes me sad when its actually my fault for causing it, if i dont ever play hard-to-get so hard. the way he talks when he's sad, sounds like he's sa jiao-ing that nobody could ever get mad at him. but makes me dam heart pain to see him that way.
i like him when he does the things that i never expected him to ever do for me, the randomness that i kinda unleashed. the things that he buy for me when im sick or when i said i like to eat, or when he feels like spending the $2 on me everyday despite his totally totally tight budget!
i like the way he sacrifices his time to play dota for me, though its totally unnecessary.
the way he teaches me the things i dont know. the way he tells me about his past. his present. and his future.
我好希望他的未来会有我的存在！
he's a super great friend, a super great boyfriend. and i can't stop liking him!
i like him a whole lot. there's still a whole list of things that i wish to name it out yet my small brain simply allowed it to slip pass. but my heart is big. i am definitely sure that no matter what, it will be here to stay, in my heart.

lastly, happy 10 weeks to us dear! thanks for keeping my heart beating! you might not be seeing this, but it still doesn't deter my randomness from writing it all down. ilu, lmpb, lmlg.

2009-02-01T17:04:00.002+08:00

Just went out visitation to my 保姆's house(: but sadded mom is recurring her loss, so angbao's not really much for keeping T.T But im still contented, cos i just earned a whooping duno-how-much o_O Didn't really bother to count hahaha.

Just came home and found the bag i took for prom lying on my table. YEAH. Now did i realise i had abandoned it just because weiliang broke it on prom night. Whatever he takes surely break i wonder why-_-" So now im gonna check out that online store again and see if i can mend it myself o_O *good luck to me* hahas, that bag is nice lo, though not really ex, but its still MY MONEY. I'm sooo not gonna squander money anyhow anymore.

And good news! I finally got my O level exam winnings!-_- (though it's like two months late) Not ALOT though, cos half of it was like used to pay my hp bills during work and to contact some idiot for the last two months -_-" And i got 100 bucks that was supposed to reimburse my holiday spendings? LOL. Fine, i already spent more than half of it at the arcade and saving some to buy a new shoe and return borkhang, before i spend them all up again-_-.

GOAL: Kay Yan's gonna save money from now on :/ JiaYou!^^V

Okay, i think this is just a crap post to remind myself not to squander anymore money at arcades and movies (mind you, i DID NOT include KBOX !=D ) Plus i got some discount at kbox that i haven't spend it away, hahaha.

Anyway, i don't feel like blogging that often liaos. Or maybe i'll add more pictures when i have a new phone. My current phone sucks like mad man!T.T

2009-01-31T16:52:00.002+08:00

*thumbs up to seoul garden* now im having food poisoning!! T.T
~~Blame it on my poor immune system! ><~~
Blame it on me eating hot and cold food together, and the raw chicken nic cooked!:D
Just kidding. hahaha.

Was supposed to enjoy my music, then received a call from chialek to lend her pants and black shoes cos she misplaced hers somewhere and she has to work later on o.O When i got there she was enjoying swensens with yk-_- good lor, didn't ask me along!><

Anyway went library and borrowed a few books about dogs cos im gonna have a pet dog SOON!~ *YAYNESS!* Im gonna train it to bite at people. MUAHAHA. Jus kidding, I'd rather train it to sit and wag, roll and shake hands, and turn about(: and maybe let my friends come see my new pet and be friends^^

OKAY. I'm thinking TOO far. -_-" tonight maybe going ahboy's house bainian!^^ angbaos coming my way loo~ *cheers*

2009-01-30T17:54:00.001+08:00

You talk to me.
You speak with me.
Don’t sink before you rise, baby.
Don’t fade away.

You hesitate, you seem to wait.
For all the come we had, feels like a world away.
Who’s to say, we’ll be ok.
We will make it through the night.
Don’t wanna wake up, in this state
I just want us both to smile.
Cause we’re the same,
And I know that we’ll never change.
Look I bought your favourite ice cream.
I don’t wanna see it melt away…
If you walk out now,
I don’t know if we’re gonna be the same.
Baby, just talk with me.
Cause I want you to stay here with me
Cause I want you to stay here… with me…

2009-01-30T16:33:00.001+08:00

RANDOMNESS.
yay!~ This is me with ana(: My eyes look damn bigggg lah!-.-

2009-01-30T15:56:00.002+08:00

YOOHOOOOO!~
Just back from msia yesterday, and went out for class gathering lohs^^
Nicholas made me go cwp early with him to repair his phone when i could sleep like 2 hours longer LOL! And complained about my attire lo-_-
NVM. It was kinda boring to be roaming cwp so early-.- So we called ky to come down immediately, and then went arcade to play air hockey(: WOOOHOOOO~ I owned nicholas 4 : 2 LOLOL! *yays!^^v*
and then we met up with ky to eat seoul garden at 12 noon!
Expected time was like.. 2 pm? So we cooked slowly, ate slowly, and by 2pm, or even before that, we were already taking the desserts LOL!

Now did i just realised me and nic are poor cooks -_- ky's a great planner and looks after his own meat on the hot plate, while mine and nick's was ALWAYS chao tah>.<" cancerous!

hahas(: slowly more and more ppl arrived and we all started the talking and playing of psp hohos. (and it was mainly guys that came lo. jingyi, wenda me and jiale were the only 4 pathetic girls down there=X ), but only me and jiale and the other 11 guys went for the movie lol. Went up to the arcade again with the rest of the class this time. GUESS WHAT? i owned shenwei 7:3 on air hockey! MWAHAHAA^^ Sw got so mad and wanted a rematch, while gordon wanted to challenge me! lalala~~

Went for movie, and went to nic's house to take sth before going home. Had a tiff with my mom for the past few days, and she damn mean and wanted to lock me out if i came home later than 8pm. and i was REALLY seconds before she could take hold of the keys to lock me out. Mad woman. I shalln't blog bout her liao. Piss me off only.

2009-01-25T22:55:00.002+08:00

KAYYAN IS NOW IN MALAYSIA!!(:

hahas. have been kinda slacking alot in msia (klang to be exact) LOL.
read like 4 books in the past 3 days.
Did some housekeeping (alot, cos the house is damn big compared to my house)
But it's already much lesser than previous years luhs. Perhaps it's because we came like super early for cny, so the preparation work seemed uber long -_- Cos this new house though may be twice bigger than my 5 room flat in sg, the buildup area is actually 2.5 times smaller than my old malaysia house, and the compound being 3 times smaller!!!! Can imagine how BIIIIIIGGG is my old house bahs? LOL.

No wonder my 2 dogs became soooo fat. THey had sooooo much lesser space to walk and exercise, resorting to slimming pills that made them soo inactive and lost their appetite. Sad.

hahaha, besides all the above i was also watching movies and live concerts throughout! hahas. hins concert etc.. hahas. ate loads of stuff at the pasar pagi, and went loads of night shopping till 1.30 am every ~~night~~ morning! =D so i guess babyboy doesn't have to fear that im being blown away lo!

but on a sadder note, i've got bugs bite and mosquito bites and it's getting sooo long to heal o_O I think im like getting over 25 bites by the 3rd night><" *cries!* and talking bout that, i just hit 2 stupid mozzies hovering about me while blogging this! =S ever seen a mozzie hovering about you, trying to find the juiciest spot so that it could land safely, and suck for a whole 5 min?! YES, a whooping 5 minutes! (and that's what i just found out after much reading these few days(: ) and when it just found the RIGHT SPOT for the night, to have a good dinner before going to bed, and here my hands came and with a BIG SMACK! here goes it's dinner, and his life! MUAHAHAHA *grins* im kinda evil blogging this on new year's day hahaha.

oh and ever wondered why mozzie bites itch so much? lolol! it's not cos of the dirty legs it'd got that makes us feel the itch, nor is it that hole it poked through our skin to suck our blood -_- Before they even bite, they actually spit their strong mozzie saliva as a lubricant and then suck from there, and this saliva makes us feel the numbness and so, we dont even know that they've bit us until the itch that comes later! (oh, im lucky hahaha, i jus saw the mozzie landing. bah, it isn't lucky afterall lehs!=X) and most people are just allergic to mozzie saliva, and hence, there goes our itch =D

I suddenly sound soo clever muahaha. *SMILES WIDELY*

Nvm, ending this here liaos. this is jus a random post. LOL
Lastly, thanks baby for remembering, and caring^^v

2009-01-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

KAYYAN BAKED COOKIES TODAY!!^^
hohoho..
i thought of you while kneading them, so i guess the cookies are sweeter?
hahas(:

I guess I'm going to an english school soon, if i can get in that is. My english is not exactly good, and i converse mainly in chinese. *nervous nervous!* I seem like i'm gonna face this whole new world by myself! In an unfamiliar place, all alone. Can i meet the expectations of what others have pinned on me? I dont know what kind of people i will be meeting then. Rich people, poor people, good people, bad people. Is this how they're differentiated? I dont know.

Okay, it's not the time to be emo hahaha.
Then i shall share a conversation i had with a good guy friend of mine. His name shall not be disclosed to protect his... hmm. to protect him LOL.

(random chatting)
HIM: hahaha, so what do you actually see in him? (him =wl) Can tell?
Me: erh... seriously.. i don't know?
Me: thanks for asking..
HIM: Sometimes... love is blind.
(I wanted to say something like... love is not blind, but it doesn't need to see..? LOL. No way im crapping that to him hahaha)
Me: True. I mean, I used to see sth good in him at first, but slowly, he changed? And i don't see that in him anymore. I changed too i guess?
(I rattled on and on...)

HIM: honestly... you want know how i feel about it?
Me: Yeah?
HIM: He should be glad that someone likes him. He's not exactly handsome you know, like AA or BB or CC, or even DD! (FYI: AA, BB, CC, and DD are all our friends. Okay, its unexpected he would say that THEY are more handsome hahaha. Now i beginning to think so too LOL!=X)
Me: You mean weiliang is it?
HIM: Yeah.
Me: Oh.. haha.
HIM: (rattled on....) No seriously.
Me: What?
HIM: Did that hurt you? Oh my god, you never say anything! I'm so sorry i was so frank!
(he panicked)
Me: lol? (okay, i kinda thanked him for saying that. 旁观者清，当局者迷 mah!)
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End of story. LMAO! Seriously I didn't know that anyone would have thought of him like THIS. I got kinda mad though, WHY DIDN'T HE TELL ME EARLIER!!?! hahaha. He rattled on from looks to personality to attitude and to many stuff. Im just too lazy to quote on.

Btw, i think i forgot to call my dearest again! SORRY YUNYING~

2009-01-17T17:38:00.003+08:00

Kay Yan's HAPPY today!
Wengho said something so crazy today.
He quoted from his senior, saying that we might need a boyfriend or girlfriend when we go to jc.
I asked him WHY? that's kinda absurd.
He said it was because of stress.

Hahaha, so i quoted this to uncle phua.
Then we figured it was so that we have a partner to BASH and SMASH when we're just so freaked out and stressed up! =D
Yay! Good luck uncle phua =P
MY SMASHING AND BASHING PARTNER LOLOL!

Just now went out for lunch and bought my contacts on the way.
And i met nick on the way home =D
Thanks for that free ice cream,
now my whole family wants me to go out to buy them each an ice cream ><"

Now i just have to think of what to do at night.
I'm so freaking bored out, and using the comp doesn't make my life anything more meaningful o_O
I'll go night cycling i guess.
Or rollerblade at night o_O
hahaha.

No one's gonna be a substitute.

2009-01-16T20:33:00.002+08:00

Some people are making me cheer up, but some others are seriously making me think otherwise.

I don't want to think, or at least, i don't wish to think of you.
We've already ended, and I don't want to be stagnant there and can't move on.
I have to be firmer.

Everytime I think of you, I want it to be happy.
But everytime i think of you now, I regret.
I regret not making a better one.
But also, I also like it when it wasn't a better one.
At least it gives me some reason to move forward.
okay, Kay Yan contradicts again.
I seriously don't know what I'm thinking.

I'm telling myself I don't like you.
I'm trying to think of all your bad stuff so that when you get close again, I will not fall for you again.
And, it's definitely impossible between me and him.
I don't want to force myself to like someone else.
Don't think I'm getting into another relationship THAT fast
Cos i'm only thinking of moving on.
I want to extend my network.
I don't want to be tied down again.
Love is not everything.
I want to enjoy singlehood.
I want to enjoy my moment with my friends.

This shall be an encouragement post for me not to like or fall for anyone in the timebeing.
I like you the way you are, my special baby.
Friends forever <3

2009-01-16T12:10:00.002+08:00

The SLEEPING BEAUTY -_-
AND THIS IS ME!=]

Hahas!
Randomness~ I just want my face on my blog, lolol!

2009-01-15T22:51:00.001+08:00

YAY the day is finally here(:
hohoho.
Thanks baby!<3

2009-01-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

2 more days..
I'm waiting <3

2009-01-13T20:41:00.002+08:00

HEYOS! Kay Yan finally got her results! Not exactly VERY good, but it was still satisfying (:
My L1r5 got 10, and after deduction is 6!!^^
SUPER HAPPY DE^^

Hahas, after the results taking I met up with YunYing to pass her her things and then went home with nicholas and dominique. LOL. I was really busy on the phone, and sad thing was, IT WAS SPOILT RIGHT BEFORE MY RESULTS TAKING!!! My phone went crazy, the main keypad is spoilt and it auto presses enter by itself. So SORRY BOYEN AND UNCLE PHUA! Auto sent like dunno how many empty SMSes to you all =X

After went home chat on phone with uncle phua, ah boy, elaine, gero, and teacher anne. hahas. really busy day, and after that i went out celebrate with my family^^v oh, and i met aikhwee on the way, but sadded he can't see me><"

NVMs. Kay Yan is happy with her results^^
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I'm sorry for causing your unhappiness, yet all that matters to you is me and my happiness

2009-01-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

Today went out whole afternoon to play mahjong with my friends.
Sian-ness can?
Heng online got like 5 ppl suddenly pop out to chat.
LOL.
If not i sure die in front of my comp liaos o_O

Anyway, I'm missing that special someone, again.
I told yy about it, and she forced me to blog while she do her things.
UNFAIRNESS!
So i shall post bout what im thinking liaos(:

I miss you, baby.
You make me think of you day and night.
You asked me if I did miss you, if i did dream of you.
I told you i forgot about my dreams, and asked you not to be so bhb, dont think that i did missed you.
But seriously,
I'm thinking of you every night before i slept, and the moment i wake up,
I think of you again.
Yes, I miss you alot.

Thanks baby, for staying by me for about 45 hours in the past 5 days.
That's about 9 hours a day on average.
I said i'm not worth your time
I tried to stay away from you when I got emo again
But you didn't blame me.
You said if there's anything
You want me to depend on you.
You will lend me your shoulders just for me.
You said you can't promise me anything,
but you can promise that you will always be by my side when i need you.

Baby, I don't need you to be by my side only when i need you.
I don't need you to only make sure i'm happy,
yet i don't even have to make you happy.
You care alot alot alot about me,
but yet i can never do that much for you.
Even if we can't be together,
I will still think that I'm not worthy of you.
Cos you are definitely too good for me.

Thanks for not trying to hurt me too.
I'm waiting for 12 more hours from now,
Just to hear from you..
I don't want to waste your money and your time anymore...
I know you're thinking that you cannot accompany me when we get into jc.
I just want to know that you're there.
I just want you to know that I'm there too.

I miss you, baby.
Goodnights <3

2009-01-11T11:59:00.004+08:00

HEYYS! I am really engrossed in my own world these few days, to be exact, these 4 days LOL.

WEDNESDAY
mood swings. I was crazy.
Thanks for caring, anyway.

THURSDAY
I went over to yunying's house to play mahjong, bridge and card games. It was terrible the previous nights, cos my mom didn't wanna allow soo many people over to our house. Kinda bad mood lor, but by 10 plus, everything was okay. So me, brian, jianzhong, edrei, weili, zhengyang all went over to yunying's house to play games and have our lunch.

I guess the most memorable time together that day was after lunch when we chat for over 2 hours bah. They queried if I had broken up or sth, so i just told the truth lor. Hahas. And zhengyang was down there, "stop saying liao!", "change topic lah!" LOL! okay, im fine lah. I won't cry in front of you and make you run for your life hahaha.

Then we started talking bout the last day of Earth.
I said I'll definitely do exotic things that I have never done before, like sky gliding, mountain climbing etc. that I always fear to do, since im dying the next day anyway.
I guess most of them said something like that.
Weili said he'll find a girl on Orchard Road and just get married immediately.
Or simply run around Orchard naked =/
Since he won't be coming out in tmr's papers anyway! LOL! =D
Yunying was the most composed one there. She won't do anything else and run her life as per normal.
hahas. I'm not that logical and sensible. But I'll definitely not stare infront of my comp blogging bout my life on the last day of Earth. =/

At the end of the day we spent like half an hour standing in the hall just to decide where we want to go the next day -.=
Insanity!

FRIDAY
Was supposed to go to some Settlers Cafe to play boardgames today, but was postponed cos we thought it won't be fun playing with only 4 people around, plus we had restrictions to how many hours we could play.

So everyone simply stayed over at yunying's house to play and have lunch (again), and then went over to lot one to watch Ip Man. (not I.P. Man, my dear)
Super nice show(: Very touching, and i was on the brink of tears liao. hahas.
After that i hurried over to anderson sec school for my sis's campfire.
haha, NO COMMENTS about their campfire! I just felt that mine was much better =X
Anyway i guess i shouldn't have gone to support my sis lor.
She didn't appreciate it anyway.
I just asked how's her school if she liked the teachers and i got scolded for nothing =/
BOOO!><" But anyway, while walking home received a call from weiliang, asking if i want to go poly open house the next day. Haha. I went of course, to rebel against my mom =D I'm nervous! 12012009 1400

SATURDAY
STUPIDITY! Guess what i thought? I thought Ngee Ann Poly was at Newton!!! Just because Ngee Ann City was at Orchard-___- Who should I blame? (ZhengYang and YunYing!) I've been out with 2 road idiots consecutively that i became one myself. LOLOL.
Because of this i got teased round after round by weiliang! walao-_-

But anyway, both of us met for lunch at kfc, and sat bus to Ngee Ann Poly (which is located at Sunset Way btw). Made a fool out of ourselves, and wanted to eat the free ice cream but was too full to eat LOL. Gey kiang right? So we took some candy floss outside the exhibition and proceeded to SP.

LOL. First time in my life (or second) i encountered a BUS BREAKDOWN. LOLOL!!! I of cos scared lah. Wl say we very suay, hahaha. No leh, kinda fun leh i guess, since we were not in a hurry. They ticket they gave us was some, "complimentary ride" LOLOL! So cool. hehes.

But after that i asked wl how long the journey would be, since i knew clementi and dover is only ONE MRT STATION AWAY. Wl told me it would take an hour, so i took out one bus ticket to let him fold hearts for me. Then not even 5 min we got down liao. STUPID ME! WHY DID I BELIEVE HIM AGAIN O_o

Sians. I feel very stupid with him leh. Letting him tease me until seriously don't know what's right and wrong sia. Anyways, we didnt get into any of the programmes or exhibitions but instead, WE WENT SEARCHING FOR THE BOWLING ALLEY -_________-

Walk until my leg pain sia, then the 7-11 didn't sell plasters for my poor feet ><"
So I endured all the way till 8 pm then weiliang bought me plasters and plastered my cuts for me.

We sat and chat at some stairs for over an hour, told him alot bout me and ***, and he also said bout his crush lah. Seems like he's more confused than I am. haahas. then proceeded to jurong point to play drum and dance para para while waiting for bork hang and wen ling. LOL. First time dance until so high with wl LOLOL! and thanks for the treat for the dance too!(: Then went to find bork and wen ling. LOL. At first was quite curious how wenling looked hahas, but she wasn't anything like a japanese girl lahs(:

Had a bit of a discussion of which movie to watch, but alas, it was all too late, so we just decided on our meals at Fish and Co. and went home lohs. Had a great day though(: WL sent me home and i just sms-ed him abit before i slept lor. my SMS bills are POPPING! o_O!
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One of our conversation went like this....
Me: Do you think after we have a few relationships, grew up a little, will we find that we are suitable for each other?
WL: Yeah... maybe.. you never know..
Me: Ohs..
WL: But if it's so, we will give ourselves the chance in future....

HOHOHO. But now, KayYan's really moving on. I'm not living for the day that me and wl can be together again. I wan to cherish everyday with the one i love, the one i like. The one that stood by me during my sad times. Maybe next time, when we can really know we are meant to be, we will be bahs. meanwhile, I only want to be your friend, your sister. I want to stand by you and give you support, and hopefully, get your help and support when i need you. I know we are still close, but one day when we found our only one, these will not last anymore. We can only catch a movie or get together for a meal together and chit chat abit, and that's all i guess.

我们是比情人更好的朋友。

2009-01-07T11:50:00.002+08:00

THIS POST IS LAME AND I STRONGLY ENCOURAGE EVERYONE NOT TO READ LOL.

AHHHH UNCLE PHUA PLEAASEEEE SAVE MEEEEEE!!!
I know i'm super crazy in front of you!
And it has really been like YEARRRRSSS since we have been chatting like this liao!
Or did we ever chat until so crazy before?
YAH I'm gonna learn how to style people's hair,
and i'm sooo gonna style yours lor.
yah yah yah, leave the first one for your girlfriend.
Save one for me too okay.
I'm still your GIRL FRIEND.
haha.

Thanks for making me smile again LOL.
Don't think of anything, just think of your screwed up hairstyle LOL? o_O
And I REALLY REALLY REALLY slept before i received that sms lah.
Believe me can?
So bhb, dun think you got charm laaa.
Well, i think you got lei,
cos before even receiving right, i already dozed off like a pig liaos.
HOHOHO. -__-

I'm sorry,
I know i'm "LAMEEE!" again, like how you always describe me twice in 3 hours of chatting.
and I'm sorry for always linking you to my ex hahas.
But thanks for being there for me and still talking non stop about your hairstyle o_O
Yah, when i'm chatting with you i shouldn't keep linking back to my past.
I should focus and think bout the future bah (not YOU xD)
Yes I told you my ambition,
you find yours too okay?
hahas.

ARHH, am i crazy again?
Crazy becos of you lor,
tolerating all my nonsense and even saying nonsense with me.
I ask serious questions you reply me super sillily (if there's such a word =X)
Finally,
I'm still very determined to "style" your hair next time i see you.
Will it be soon?
hahahas.
I wish leh,
you're so near yet so far.
and i don't wish to trouble you too.
But i won't emo when you're around(:
And i'm no longer that baby of yours le wor.
but you're still that uncle phua that i know hahaha.
TOODLES!<3

2009-01-06T22:07:00.002+08:00

Kay Yan just implanted a brain in her heart.
I always wanted my heart to have a brain.
So now that i did it, I'm glad =]
So that when i think with my heart,
it's telling me the right thing.
Something logical.
Something sensible.

Last time when my heart didn't used to have a brain,
I feel foolish.
I kept doing things and think with my heart,
hurting myself over and over again.
Now that i have it,
I will make use of it,
I'll rule it wisely.
I will stop thinking of you.
But i won't forget you.
In my heart,
you can never be forgotten.

You always have that important place in my heart.
The irreplaceable place that is stuck deep at the bottom of it.
Now, it's replaced with my brain.
My brain will take control of my heart functions.
I wish to shift you out from that place,
demote you from Very Important Person,
to a place at another part of my heart.
The place where it hurts the least.
Well, which part of the heart doesn't hurt?
I doubt there is =/

But still, i still want to keep you in my heart.
To let me remember you.
Remember the places we've been together.
All the memories together.
I guess alot of our memories are in that teck whye campus lol.
Now that it's not used anymore,
i think our love should be buried too.
Let the burial place be in our hearts too okay?
A place that is not forgotten,
but also a place where we smile when we think of each other.

Aikhwee told timothy, and timothy told me that,
10 years down the road, when we look back at the things we did,
we will laugh out loud,
thinking how foolish we are.
Yups, i think this is true.
Maybe in another year i can laugh out about what happened to us luhs.
LOL.

Timothy also said,
everything happens for a reason.
You came into my life.
You came into my life for a reason.
For me to learn how to give and take.
For me to understand the importance of friendship.
To cherish the things around me when they are there and don't only cherish it only when it's lost.
For me to curb my temper, don't lose my temper so easily sometimes.
To know how not to demand for attention everytime.
and only when the event calls for.
And did i know how to dress up because of you?
I knew my way to dan ryans because of you.
I learnt to make cards for you, draw for you, and choose sweet presents for you.
I learnt to care, I learnt to love.
I only regret not loving you the right way.
No matter what,
it's because of you,
i know you are not the one for me.

And did you learn something too?
I guess i came here for a reason too.
I helped you with your bad temper (but lost mine)
You learnt how to keep little secrets (but still let out alot)
You learnt to cheer people up with your cuteness, but dont call or bark anymore ok?
You learnt to cry, and to love others i guess.
The main thing you learnt,
is that i was not the right girl for you.

We said we do not have that feelings to commit anymore.
Do not have the lovely and sweet feelings together.
But i still hope you keep me in your heart,
somewhere in your heart will do.
Just make sure you know im there.
Keep that friendship band okay?
So that when i see that, and wear that,
It reminds me that you are just a friend to me.
No,
You are the best daigor to me.
I believe someday, someone can replace you in my heart,
but as my daigor,
I strongly believe,
No other brother will care for me as much as how you care for me.

Thanks for caring not only about my health,
my welfare,
my safety,
and my happiness.
You know you hurt me,
but thanks for minimizing to the least.
Yes, as a boyfriend you may be a jerk ( and i strongly emphasize that),
but as a brother,
you really have done well.

I still hope in your heart,
I'm still that wonderful, cheerful sister of yours.
I know i'm not a good girlfriend.
But this is just our first time.
I may have other guys before you,
But you're still the most special one above them all.

I'm now carefree.
I'm now enjoying singlehood.
And I think you should enjoy it too, before you start into another relationship.
I know all you feel is loneliness.
Just don't rush through it,
like how we brushed ours through.
In the meantime,
I love you, as a brother.
And i know you love me too,
as your sister.

We are not meant to be lovers,
but we are definitely meant to be the best of friends.

2009-01-06T20:54:00.002+08:00

HELLOS i really long no blog liaos!
I'm still waiting verryyyyy long for my sis and kiam to send me the photos!=X

Anyway, yesterday went out with timothy (and aikhwee) to slack!
YUP. we literally slacked the whole afternoon.
first we checked out the flyer that has stopped-___-
lame right?
yeah. THATS US!
hahaa.
the business really affected.
then i brought him to walk at the back to adventure, alas there no ppl de-_-
after that we went to the garden!
You know what?
I mistook a TV Screen as a Touch screen.
and kept pointing and touching it to click it.
damn paiseh lah!
until they tell me it wasn't a touch screen -_-
cos the screen was super heated up de.

hahas.
after that we walked the F1 track^^
okay, it's jus a very plain road that is tarred, jus that there aren't any cars.
So after that timothy say we have to walk back to marina then he knows the way.
SILLY!
i saw the concourse from there and i just brought him to lavender mrt.
then we took our way down to bugis and SHOPPED.
We sat down there at mac and chat for about 2 hours.
haha.
SUPER SIAN.
without buying anything summore!
okay, 3 packets of tissue for 50 cents from an auntie complaining leg pain -.=
but anyway,
kayyan first (or second) time buying tees on impulse.
and 2 friendship bands(:
hahas.

SORRY GUYS. i know i was little paranoid yesterday. and thanks loads for accepting all my shit!=/
yups, thanks for praying for me every night.
let me start the list of people i want to thank!

LET ME THANK:
- MY MOM! haha, for letting me cry on her shoulder and blabbering everything out to her from 11pm to 3am!! well, my voice sucked when crying, and she totally didn't stop me from pouring my feelings out hahahas. THANKS AND I LOVE YOU<333
- My darling YunYing! She never stops saying she wants to smack my butt, and kept abusing me verbally-.= but i still appreciate it no matter what. Thanks for trying to protect me!<33
- NICHOLAS SIA! haha. Thanks for protecting me in a way or another. Don't give up on things that changed you in a way or another. StJohn bonded us, okay? SMILES!<3
- Yaocong(: Thanks for drawing all the happy spirits and staying by me.
- Bing Hong. Haha, i have no time for you, yet you have all the time for me. Thanks wor. And thanks for praying for me to find my happiness=]
- Timothy. I thanked you liao. haha. Thanks for accepting my noisy complaints and grouses hahaha.
- Boyen! The guy that says he won't wear specs so as not to hide his beauty!! *puke can?* Yeah, your lame jokes was kinda useful i guess. Thanks for being there for me and always popping up to ask if i'm feeling okay o_o
- Perry. Haha, thanks friend. I know, i only knew you recently, but thanks for brightening my day! Have fun and study hard in uni okay. hahas.

- Lastly, MR Yap Wei Liang. hahas. I know I shouldn't be thanking you, but well, I guess it's time we leave each other and just be friends yah? All the while I don't wish to admit that what i have for you is not love, but just that i can't let go. Now, it's time we both move on. I've grown up because of you, and i know every pitfall and of cos, my good and bad points. I'll strengthen my good points, and change my bad points, well, to be a better person of course. We know we can never forget each other, and we will never want to forget each other. But for now, let's love each other as a sibling. As a good friend. As they say, your ex will always be your best friend. Sometimes ex-lovers can never be friends, but for those who can, they'll always be best friends. I guess it's because we understand each other best bahs. Or someone to talk to and open their hearts to. I can finally sleep well now, cos i will never think of you at night and cry anymore. Well, i went to the place we've been before, but now, i never cry anymore. I smiled.

Thanks for letting me lean on your shoulders and cry it out loud. YES I TOTALLY AGREE YOU ARE A JERK. And you know why. But for now, I know I still have you and did not lose you. Well, I may have lost you, but i'm not losing you now. I know you'll be by my side when i need you. Meanwhile, YOU OWE ME SUSHI OKAY!!? Ask me to teach you how to chase that girl for you. LOL. See my mood, if i'm mad it's gonna be SAKAE SUSHI. but if i'm good its only the 70 cents octopus sushi(: Just make sure i'm in a good mood!

Anyway, i just made friends with Perry! *happy* He's 18 going on 19 hahas. Living in Taiwan de.. like soo cool. They have winter vacation of up to 38 days and 3 months of summer vacation!! KAYYAN'S ENVIOUS!! :DD

いつか私たちは以前よりもうまくなるわ

2009-01-04T15:06:00.003+08:00

私はあなたの世界にすることはありません。私はあなたの手を保持するために、あなたと一緒に世界を歩いてください。
私はあなたに言いたいことは分かっていませんが、私にすべてを意味しています。
私は深いトラウマ十分残っていると私たちの知っているが、両方を私たちは、このチャンスを、与えられたすべての変更が知っている。私たちはそれぞれ、最愛の他に作られています。

愛のバラのベッドのようなものです。針を刺す場合があるが、あきらめていないからといって全体のベッドをのぞいてみたが1つのとげが上昇したことにバインドされています。

131452012 。パートナーのニーズはまだ..
今では資格の1つは、医師、患者さんはネジであり、彼を行かせできる状態にない。
医者は真剣に私のための患者..として、あるいはケア、取るには解消される場合だ。
私、あなたを愛することを愛している。
より良い医師となるためには患者さんを見つけてください。
もっと注意して、治療するには、失われた瞬間を一緒にして下さい。

のヒマワリ...
ミツバチが受粉する必要があります。
そして、太陽の発芽して成長します。
徒長枝とする。
誰かは私に関係なく、
私たちは本当にお互いが必要です。
もっと注意して、治療するには、失われた瞬間を一緒にして下さい。

海賊船は...
所有者のない土地は、メイン捨ててはいけないだろうか？
私は、私を見つけるにはスタークルーズしたくない
またはメイン..を検索する巡視船
私は、海賊船を1回以上のボード上にある、と思って永遠に滞在する。
どこに、または移動する私たちは、帆をもたらすが、私はこの上なく幸せな場所では、海賊船のことができる一日、ドックと考えています。
私は、海賊との平和的な場所で生活したい。永遠に。
うーん。永遠に正しい単語はありますか？私は知らない。
私はもう永遠にとは思わないね。
しかし、すべての私ですが、私は喜んであなたと一緒にしているとして、我々は長い間、長い間一緒に生活をします。そして、できるだけ長く。

われわれは、赤ちゃんが必要です。
ここに私はいつもあなたのためです。
私はあなたが知っている私にとってもされる。一方、過去の埋没させる。
私は、今、永遠にあなたを愛し。

2009-01-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

New Year is supposed to be with a good start bah? Was mine a good one?
My good friends would know the answer bahs...

What's my New Year resolution? Everyone seems to have plans ahead for the next year, but what about me? I seem to spend one day and only thinking about the present, not for the future. My future... I'm still awaiting for my results. That's my future i guess.

My future... Does my future have you? Will you be in my life? I don't know.
I said I'll give you time to think. I guess, I need time for myself to think over what kind of relationship I want with you bahs.
Yes, I yearn for a sweet relationship. I want that sweetness i felt last time, the feeling of security that you will never let me go. I feel happy to be with you. I cherish you even more for spending time with me.. to the extent that I'm sorry that I spent too much time crying.
You said you're confused. I am too. I dont know how long this 'critical stage' is going to last. I'm tired. I need to settle my thoughts too. You said you won't give me empty promises. But please promise me that breaking up will not be your first resort?

I'm living in fear.
I fear that the more time I give you, the more prepared you are in leaving me.
I'm scared that history will repeat itself.
I don't want it to repeat.
You said you won't leave me again anymore de.
That was your last promise before the end of 2008.
I hope you keep to that promise.
In any case, happy one year anni to the both of us.
We need time.
Yes, time is all we need.
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♥ kãÿ ýåñ™ says: i give him time and dont think so much... can le hors?...
Flawless™ says: can
Flawless™ says: lol
Flawless™ says: as long as you don't think about it
Flawless™ says: it'll be okay (:
♥ kãÿ ýåñ™ says: okays...
♥ kãÿ ýåñ™ says: i try bahs.
Flawless™ says: cannot try!
Flawless™ says: lol
♥ kãÿ ýåñ™ says: why cannot try..? lol
Flawless™ says: its a must
Flawless™ says: lol.

JIAYOU KAYYAN. YOU CAN DO IT DE!!
I mean every word I say in my email and sms. I hope this relationship will be a better one. I'm not greedy. This will be my only new year resolution. I promise to make this a good one. You promised too, remember?

6F Gathering `04

2008-12-29T22:52:00.001+08:00

YAYS today went to my Pri 6 class gathering!!
Long time didn't see them luhs(: Was supposed to meet wylie and shirlmin at 10.45 at causeway point. 10.45 am, guess what, they were still at malaysia customs! walking down the super long walkway-__- Being nice me, i went causeway point walk walk and went into Helens. Guess what? Those bitchy salesgirl was talking bad bout my friend! okay, i acted not to know them, but well, when i went out after like 5 minutes, they were still discussing over that issue, like big deal like that. HELLO! Owe 5 bucks big deal ah? Owe 10 bucks want hang pig head liao is it?

NVM. Wylie asked me to go kranji wait for them, so i did. And when i alighted chialek called. So i didn't walk up to speak to justin teng. SORRY Justin! I knew u knew it was me there. haha. When they arrived, that John Chin bombarded me with question why didn't I talk to Justin. Sorry lah>< I didn't outcast him on purpose okay? but after that on the train we chatted all the way to clarke quay lol.

The most memorable conversation was about how Unique fell off her seat on the bus during one excursion? lol..i dont mean to laugh, but i was surprised i didn't know that during primary school! or did i forget it? I guess so =/

Then another was "How many people did Edward teased until cry?"
I think it was 3, or 4? Privitha cried during WITS or OOTM once. Then he teased Unique i think. and he called Yen Fung a 'chickenbutt head' on the M'sian bus, and that made Yen Fung cry. LOL. Damn funny lah! then Edward denied, he said he didn't call Yen Fung a 'chicken butthead', but 'smelly butthead' LOL! and that went on and on... LOL.

When we reached I just struck a short conversation with Yoon Siang, but spent more time laughing at WenKai's hairstyle. Like just woke up lidet. Kiam said it looked like 十兄弟's Fifth son LOL!! Nvm, after taking bus 54 from central, boyen guided us with his gps in his hp to "Galleria-aye Hotel". YUP. That was how that deep-voiced boyen said the hotel was called. Only then did we know it was actually "Gallery Hotel". -___-

Went for buffet lunch there, but sat separate table with them, cos not long enough-_-. But we had fun with John, Shirlmin, KimYung, Edward, Hazel lahs. Perhaps more fun than the other table(: The hotel was nicely embellished with butterfly designs hanging from the ceiling lol, super nice. But the food wasn't so, sad to say. That's why we ate mostly desserts than the main course. Typical Kay Yan=]

Here's one of the conversation that was super super cold at our table:
Edward: I don't know why I found it super funny to call KimYung "Kim Geok". Kim Geok. Geok Kim. Geok Kim Geok Kim Geok Kim!
(Very cold....)
Wylie: Kim Geok sounds like my friend, Geok Teng. Geok is 玉. So Kim Geok is 金玉！
Me: You're super expensive leh, Kiam!
John: So you should marry Man Tang.
Everyone: Why?
John: So you'll be 金玉满堂!!! LOL
(Wylie took the condensation from her glass of ice water and draw dots on the table)
Hazel: What u drawing?
Wylie: Dots Dots Dots.
ShirlMin: Crow flying past... (waving her hand like crow flying past)
John, the super slow one: Where? Where got crow? HUH?
Edward: No crow lah! Neh, you see! Butterflies!! (pointed to the ceiling)
Kiam and I: Yayaya, motion pictures sommore! See from small to big (due to the diff sizes of the butterflies hung from the ceiling)

----------------END OF COLD JOKE---------------------

WALAO! Super lame lah we all. And sooo much misunderstandings that made everything so funny lol. Ate more carrot cake (that was super super nice!) and paid for the bill. Very ex. Spent alot of time complaining with ShirlMin. hahas.

After that we went back to central and chit chat. We didin't have any schedule, so we kept asking what time will we be leaving. "Butt pain then leave" was the reply. LOL. So we said loads of stories. Thank Justin for sharing ur life story... Jiayou okay? SMILES(:

haiz. everyone changed alot, yet somehow when we got together, nothing seem to change.
I know i'll miss yoonsiang, who will be going aust soon. VERY SOON.
I'll definitely miss shirlmin, she's just the same self. always smiling even when it wasn't funny. so cute=]

but some others who changed their attitude for the worse...i don't think it's worth missing you, or cherishing our friendship. But i'll never forgo the rest with jus this one person.

Nevertheless, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE. year's ending, a brand new chapter is about to unfold. Smile always and have a fruitful and successful year ahead yeahs? Loves and misses to all=]
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Thanks for the treat, unofficially.

2008-12-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BOXING DAY!
okay.. i know i'm a day late. but it doesn't hurt right?=D
today just went out to celebrate my mom's belated birthday at orchard cafe at orchard hotel=D
WHEES!
food was SUPER NICE lahs.
plus got complimentary durian cake lohs!
and the abalone they served was not those tough tough one, very well done and treated lols.

hahas. my mom was like, so funny. she took the meatball cabbage soup and added the abalone inside, and told us it was abalone soup, and it's not served here de LOL! damn funny lahs, and she took two bowls so that me and my sis don't go snatch with her and daddy =[ LOL!

after that mom went to visit my grandma, so my daddy brought us to walk at wheelocks place. My sister's idea to go to toys R us actually-___- LOL

after that i went to watch YesMan with my friend. New friend? Or not a friend? I don't know. Im just confused. But i was definitely not myself for crying in front of a guy i met for the first time.

Rest assured, these things won't happen again.

2008-12-26T11:26:00.003+08:00

HELLO MY FRIENDS!! MERRY CHRISTMAS(:

Kay Yan is finally back!! Haha i just knew u guys missed me =X
Went msia for a few days. Shopped like crazy i guess.
Hahaha im too lazy to post the pics..but well.. there's really loads to see and shop at KL.

DAY ONE-
Took a bus to buy tonics early in the morning, then took another bus down to Sogo. Reached sogo at 9.50! haha. I was actually the first customer to step into Sogo!! SUPER HONOURED!! And you could see how they bowed at you... Every storey you go and you get ur respect(: Just like a valued customer. haha. Perhaps all Japanese corporations are like that haha.

Bought a few blouses there, checked in hotel, and went shopping again.

DAY TWO-
Ate the complimentary breakfast from my hotel. My hotel's super cheapp!! RM120 for a night with complimentary breakfast for 4 and with 4 single beds(: only the toilet's not attached. BUT thr's TWO toilets(: so it speeds up our bathing time =D

Went Sunway Pyramid in the morning, and had MR TEPPANYAKI for lunch(: wasn't exactly perfect, and the service was lacking. THey lacked staff, and the cashier was rotating from being a cashier, and a waiter. The seats were mostly fully seated, and there's only 2 teppanyaki chefs! so we waited... and waited.. and waited.. and by the time we wanted to ice skate, it was like...SUPER PACKED ALREADY-__-

no ice skating anymore =[ we went to buy fooood instead!!(: went one shop and spent RM70 on sweets, tidbits, gummies and biscuits((:

Then we went to Petaling street. And everything there was FAKES. Fake Gucci, LV, Prada.. shoes, wallets, handbags. Nike Adidas Puma fakes are also found. Quality quite okay lah, so we slashed the price by 40%, but leaving some leeway for that Myanmar guy to make a living in that totally congested, super competitive street. Well, it's actually much worse than Bugis Street, but the things can be better bargained and much cheaper than here. But I guess most of the things are just rejects =/

DAY THREE-
Bought Yun Ying her souvenir after searching for 3days, and loitered at Sungei Wang Plaza, BB Plaza for more than half a day. Who would ever know I've been walking TWO SHOPPING CENTRES AT THE SAME TIME. No wonder my legs were so painful and that area was sooooo big. -__- but lotsa fashion stuff all at a cheap price. Well, everything in Msia seems so cheap. Even a bowl of porridge cost only RM1.60! and much nicer than in sg. Spent 2 hours waiting for my sister to cut her hair at a professional hair studio. Thought it would be a quick one, so my mom didn't allow me to color my hair there. SIAN-_-. My sis shampooed and blew dry her hair, got a 5min long neck massage, cut her hair by an intermediate learner, then final cut by a professional. Guess how much it costs! RM13!!! SUPER CHEAP!

hahaha. I guess its enough. I've been emphasizing on the cheap stuff throughout my post. In total I guess we've spent RM2000. and it's no surprise RM1000 is spent entirely on ME. hahhaha. Feeling kinda lucky.. but bad=X

So currently I guess I'll start to save money.. Spend it at chinatown and clarke quay with my exclsmates. And i'll go dating with yy soon after that, treat nicholas sia and shenwei to somewhere nice. Im so sorry.. but i've been delaying it for soo long=X
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I just scrolled my entire inbox this morning and deleted most of the messages, besides the jokes LOL. It's right, some memories are meant to be kept, while others, it's not even worth 1kb of your memory space(: Saw back some messages that may spur up emotions with me, but this time, I took it with an open heart. Guess it's a good thing for me.. hahaha.

For all the times we had been together, it's time to say goodbye. I mean, we said goodbye 6 days ago. I can face it, and face you. You're just a coward too afraid to face me. 25 calls to get you, only you would not have the courage to pick it up.

No promises--

2008-12-21T12:49:00.002+08:00

Rules to be followed: Each blogger must post this rules.
Each blogger must start with ten random facts about themselves.
Bloggers that are tagged need to write about their own blog,
ten things and post this rules.
Don't forget to leave them comments telling them
that they have been tagged and are to read your blog.

1. I have mood swings. Those SUPER SUDDEN ones. I don't know why, I can think of something bad super suddenly when i was very happy previously. Or flare up a little too suddenly :X
2. I've got a pretty bad temper to people im familiar with. But it's with a reason though. I think.
3. I love attention. I love to be cared, and pampered, and be treated like a princess(:
4. I hate loneliness. I sometimes wished i wasn't lonely at night, so i won't imagine things that wouldn't happen.
5. I love going out with friends, but most times my mom didn't really like me to go out often.
6. I love hangovers, as usual, I have curfews._.
7. I have no interest in gaming. I find them a waste of time. I would rather read than play.
8. I love art and crafts, but, i have no idea if i have a flare for it. I took my boyfriend to test out all the different designs of cards i wrote, and the flying pigs i drew (It's actually a pig in a superman hood). Well of course he said everything looked nice, and im still doing more of these. Wonder who's my next victim HAHAHA.
9. My first words i said wasn't MAMA or DADDY. I said "OH MY MY". My parents later figured that i was actually singing "THREE BLIND MICE". -__-
10. I am seriously afraid of cockroaches. Don't prank me with one, cos i may hate you forever for that.

1.who's the person that tagged you?
SOW YUN YING

2. Relationship between you and her?
my DARLING =]

3.Three impressions of her?
Kind, Sweet, Cute ^^

4.If she becomes your enemy, you will...
kill her. hahaha.

5. What will you say to the person you like very much
女生要矜持！I will die than to tell that person hahaha.

6. Characteristic i like about myself?
I just like the way I am, and I will never change myself for anyone again(:

7. Characteristic i hate about myself?
PUH-LEAZE let me grow taller!

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?
Hahaha..thanks? thanks for letting me have the experience of hating someone as idiot as you(: hahaha.

9. What do people feel about you?
NICE^^ jkjk. Nice is a vague word, quoted by Mr. Osgodby and Mr. Roy Ng.
This question.. i seriously don't know ._.

10. Your crush?
haha..which one?xD jkjk.

11. Pass this to 10 people:
1. WeiLing
2. ZhengYu.
3. YinShuen.
4. ChiaLek.
5. Stephanie.
6. ShiHui.
7. Anastasia.
8. Nicholas.
9. Timothy.
10. Keefe.

12. If 5 & 7 were together?
Steph and Ana. HAHAHA. That'll be the best joke of the year.

13. who does 5 like?
Steph.. hmm. Some guy i dont know?xD

14. What colour does 9 like?
Black i think. Or red?

15. Say something about 8?
Nicholas is my best platonic friend!

16. Who is 2?
Zhengyu. Steamfish. haha.

17. Talk about 3.
YinShuen. A good friend of mine, who cried with me when watching horror film hahaha.

18. Who is 10's best friend?
Not sure..

19. Who's the sexiest among all 10?
Steph bahs(:

20. What colour does 4 like?
Blue?

21. Is 4 single?
YUPS

22. Your relationship with 1.
WeiLing. Good Friends. My boyfriend=]

23. Are 5 & 6 best friends?
YUPS! SUper close=]

24. 9's surname?
TAN. Timothy Tan

25. 7's nickname?
Ah Bish!

26. Say something to 8.
Jiayou=] smile always.

27. Say something to help 9.
Dream more often(: I want to know ur dreams hahaha.

28. Who do i admire?
MY MOM. For making so much nice foood(:

29. Where does 1 live?
CCK.

30. 10 of them know who you like?
I guess so.. but who do i like? -_-

31. Say something to 6 when you see him.
Erh. Hello?

32. 10's spouse?
Too early, and too much =X

kkies..
End of Quiz.

I'll MIA for a week loh! hahaha.

2008-12-21T12:01:00.002+08:00

hahaha. ytd was watching movies on mysoju and too lazy to post.

friday.. i met with jianzhong and yunying to go back to school. haha. it was SUPER BIG. built up area increase only lah actually, the total compound didn't increase at all haha. then walked for about 3 hours plus? then we went over to sunshine plaza and 'hibiscus park', and walked back to yunying's house. anyone living in cck will know there is no such place as HIBISCUS PARK. and you know what? i saw TEMPUSU as HIBISCUS. Too clever liao right? hahaha

then we ate and chat and used comp at yy's house, until nic and edrei came, where the fun began. we played card at first, and then we played monopoly. ARGH i got the most property yet i dint win the game><><

hahas. but it was super fun lah. hanging out with exclassmates and playing around..so happy^^ kinda love such attention=]

at night... it was just a bad dream... dun wish to talk bout it. 谢谢你，给了我这一段微笑情缘(:
and thanks to the special someone last night for accompanying me throughout^^
you might not be reading this post though.. haha.

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and yups! i saw this at my junior's blog =] pardon me for ripping =X

7 things that scare me:
#1: COCKROACHES!! 晚上怕蟑螂比怕色狼还多！
#2: Horror film. I need a hand to grip on to, or at least a pillow to hug=]
#3: Ghosts, imagining ghosts, or mere talking bout the underworld. Cos i would imagine things. haha
#4: Rats? I hate their tails. And yeah, i got freaked out when i saw one coming out from that food & drink stall at bugis village!!=X
#5: Scary nightmares?-_- the most scary one was someone holding a knife in the hotel i was living in. I think it was adapted from some show i was watching in the day. 日有所思，也有所梦mah!
#6: Crocodiles. Nothing much, I'm just afraid to be torn apart with their canines. :/ YIKES!
#7: Something flying into my ear, or hovering about me.

7 things i like most:
#1 ME. hahaha.
#2 My family
#3 My friends
#4 My room. Its SUPER CLEAN NOW. hahaha=]
#5 FOOOOD =DD
#6 Being treated^^
#7 Going out with anyone I like.

7 important things in my room:
#1 My handphone
#2 My specs
#3 All my clothes
#4 Erm.. My bed?
#5 ALL MY SOFT TOYS(:
#6 My dressing table
#7 My make up=]

7 random facts about me:
#1 I hate being lonely.
#2 I love attention, not too much, but i kinda enjoy being in someone's attention.
#3 I am always pampered(: I don't know why.. I want to try pampering someone too=]
#4 I guess im quite sociable bah^^ I can sit at a foreign place and make friends WITH GIRLS. haha.
#5 I feel weird making friends with guys in a foreign place. I don't approach them unless they approach me. But those that approach me wun be up to any good bah? hahaha.
#6 I don't know how to crack GOOD jokes. I just find that the jokes i crack are not funny. And people laugh cos my reaction is funny.
#7 I dun even know if im cute. haha. People say i'm acting cute sometimes, and i dun even know if i ever did. hahaha.

7 things that i can never do:
#1 SPLIT! I would want to learn leh.. but my body is soo stiff.
#2 Dance? I love to learn it someday, NOT NOW. haha.
#3 Dont wash my hair for more than a day! YIKES!
#4 Find a boyfriend born in the zodiac Libra
#5 ONE NIGHT STAND.
#6 Committing suicide. I thought of before.. but i still can't find the best way, so no thanks=]
#7 Look at my dead body. Like DUH-_-

7 things i always say:
#1 Orh
#2 Okay
#3 No lah
#4 Yaloh
#5 Erm
#6 为什么？
#7 你很lame lehs!

7 people i would pass this on to:
#1 YunYing
#2 WeiLing
#3 YinShuen
#4 ZhengYu
#5 Anastasia
#6 ChiaLek
#7 ShiHui

2008-12-18T14:26:00.003+08:00

HELLOS i finally revived my blog!(:

*3 cheers*

i went out with huiqing and yunying yesterday! to go for that interview. haha. NTUC FOOD FARE at some ulu ulu senoko south road. Elis told me it's the 9th busstop from Woodlands Bus Interchange, but right from the first busstop we had forgotten to count!=X so i anyhow made my assumptions, and YUP, we got down at the correct stop(: YIPPIES.

then we walked and walked and walked (i can't stop emphasizing the 'walk' LOL!) to find that building, greeted by a cute security guard hahaah. WE HAD WALKED ROUND THE ENTIRE BUILDING COMPOUND!! So he rode on his bike and guided us to the front of the building. Then some 60 year old auntie there said what, "no.. you all too childish, too young, can't work lahh!", before we had our interview.

following that we went for the interview lool. the feeling.. very weird. I don't want that job. hahaha. so we made for a move and went shopping centres after shopping centres(: huiqing had to go home for lunch, so me and yy went amk to eat takoyaki! haha. ADVERTISEMENT! THE TAKOYAKI THERE IS SOOO NICE AND CHEEEAP!! 4 FOR $2, can mix flavours. Chicken ham & cheese, Tuna and chilli, prawn, and octopus flavor(: hahaha. should be block 710 if im not wrong. hahas.

then both of us went to yewtee playground opp Unity Sec.

the EMPTY playground. I seldom see one empty one nowadays. hahaa. so it was all MINE AND YUNYING'S^^
hehs.. took quite a few pics and posted on facebook(: whee.

KAYYAN IS SUPER HAPPY EVERYDAY!!^^

my birthday!(:

2008-09-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

whee! ytd was my birthday! hahas im finally 16 now!!^^ so happy! *yippies*

haha i would like to thank all my godbros & sis for wishing me, as well as all my friends haha. thanks for all your presents and well wishes!^^ enjoyed them alot. i know nic, sw, yaocong and ky had a really hard time deciding on what to buy for me. and sw have to spend countless smses trying to gather everyone aft school to write my card.. yeah.. thanks BROs, and KY! haha

Here is the list:
yunying, weiling, xiying, yinkee, amreeth, chialek, regina laogong, shenwei, nicholas, kunyun, NIANG!, nu'er, wanting, shuli, anastasia, candice, gordon, waileong, dominique, zongli, wengho, minghuan, bowen, audry, xiexin, aaron CHIA, yaocong, herianti, zhengyu, wangda, er jie, elaine jie, aikhwee, yinshuen, joshua, huilin, borkhang, zhengyang, cheryl, yitian (very surprised, but thanks!^^), derrick bro, yuzhen, yunxin, zihui, yoonsiang, calvin, jiajing, junguan, kenneth, etc etc..

haha sorry if i left you out but you are just as impt lahs(:

in th afternoon went out with dar to sakae. he said he wanna go toilet. i knew he was up to sth jus that i did not wanna expose his intentions. haha, kayyan's nice(: then he came back with a couple ring from couple lab. haha. expected. he's just TOO easy for me to figure him out. hahaha.

had quite a great time with him, shop shop and eat. he said he had a whole lot of activities planned, so i just followed his activities, but soon found out that it just didn't make any sense. sakae followed by nyny-_-" its nt as if sakae got no dessert in the buffet meal. nvm. so i cancelled it. but after that the next activity was shopping. hahaha. being soo nice, i just told him it was great, and i hope i didnt sulk.

i told a white lie to him. GOSH i know i shouldn't be lying on my birthday!=X but at least it made him happier, which made me slightly happier i guess. haha

Satisfaction of presentS: 90/100
so sad i can't hang th windchime at my house >< but nevertheless the pencilcase, anklet, badzzmaru keychain, necklace was great. and the BABY OSGODBY LOLOL!!

Satisfaction of celebration: 80/100
hahaa. only setback was i was too full. i could hardly walk home~~

Level of surprise: 10/100?
i knew exactly what he planned. the 10 marks was given cos i was surprised he didn't prepare days earlier (like what he said on sunday that he was preparing) for the engraving. i was surprised it wasn't engraved, that's all-_-

Nevertheless, it was still a memorable sweet sixteen for me(: tried my best to liven my spirits despite the slight disappointment and the loss of my geog tb.

Thanks everyone for making this day a spectacular one, just like a princess...=]

2008-09-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

HEYAS!~
long time no post!

have been going to arcade with him after my english tuition everytime to play the somewhat-childish-and-stupid electronic touch game, Y2K-____- spot the difference game, in other words. LOL. sounds like i have no childhood, haha. no, scratch that. i'm just too fond of my childhood(: nostalgia.

went swimming on friday with him(: yippies! first time we going swimming together and it was sooo fun lahs!^^ first we went to the medium pool to test the temperature of the water. then we went over to the big pool was so warm there lohs! haha. then we tried swimming laps but he can't swim long and kept apologising to me. haha. never blamed him lah loL! we played fetching there in the 1.8m deep pool LOL. guess what we were fetching? his specs-_-

then we went back over to th medium pool and by then the jacuzzi was on, so we just immersed ourselves in there LOL. then i proceeded teaching him how to float on water. haha was a success after many attempts *HOORAYS!* then we did many funny stunts inside water (his jellyfish and mushroom made me ROFLMAO!) but his fingers were numb so we went up and bathed and went off.

sad to say, i forgot to take my pin and hairband from the toilet. boos><"

then we rode on my bike down the slope till the trafficlight there. gosh damn scary lah! but it was so fun^^ who ask him to be so heavy that my bike toppled LOLOL. next we went to the neighbourhood and i introduced him to the 大包. haha his facial expression soo cute lah when he was lavishing it(: hahas. played scissors paper stone at the fitness corner. GUESS WWHOOO WON? lalalas. he won't be glad if i said it LOL.

we then pushed my bike to msl mrt and tried on many tees and shorts. well, it's me only actually. he only gave his comments lah -_- but anyway thanks dar LOADSLOADS for buying me that white shorts and paying for the membership for THIS FASHION(: haha. love him loads man!

after that i went to fetch my sis, and dar went home to change and go out with bork le. haha

had so much fun today!^^ hope Os are quickly over so that i can enjoy my life hahaha. *wishful thinking* i better study more this holiday before it finally ends. but i guess i'll just be engrossed in that korean drama anyway